injury promotes thinking

A lot has happened since my last post.

.....but a lot of the memories have already been faded away by bigger happenings in my life.

Fast forward.

Triple Crown: the first competition of a 3 bouldering-competition-series. Boone, North Carolina. Hound Ears.

It was a beautiful day. PERFECT weather. Good people.

I was working on this climb called Flash or Trash. It was a classic v5 in the area.

I was getting so close!

Finally I was near the top, going for the last HUGE hold. I hit it with two fingers and fell. Bam.

I screamed as my foot hit the ground. I never scream like that.

My foot started burning. It felt like it was on fire.

Oh well, i just sprained it... or rolled it.... thats what i kept saying to myself.

But I couldn't walk. i couldn't stand up. I couldn't even wiggle my toes.

I camped out in extreme pain. I grinned and bared it all through the award ceremony and after party as i sat in Friksn's booth.

The next day we drove back to Chattanooga.

We went to the ER to get X-rays... which is all a story within itself.

Long story short, I broke my heel. It is in 3 or 4 pieces.

This week I am not allowed to do anything. I have to keep it VERY elevated 24/7. I'm not allowed to go to class... I'm not even allowed to get up for more than 5 minutes at a time with crutches.

I was sooooooo bummed at first. I couldn't stop crying. The climbing season JUST started and I will be missing it.

But after a few days, I have a whole new mindset.

healing is 90% in the mind.... and it starts now. I am so happy that I healed so quickly and that my foot is in perfect condition. I am so excited to be able to climb again. I am so grateful for this slow-down in my life and the opportunity to THINK and PRIORITIZE my life! I know exactly why this happened and I am so thankful for it. LIFE IS GOING JUST THE WAY I WANT IT TO GO!

I was EXTREMELY stressed before this. I was crying myself to sleep every night. School was taking a huge toll on my mental health. It was not good. I didn't have time to do anything I wanted to do. I wasn't doing enough climbing, I hadn't had time to make ANY art, I didn't have time for meditation or time to think.... But now I do.

I have had many epiphanies over the past few weeks and even a 'calling.' This accident is the first step in the right direction.

My life just formed 2 separate paths... I'm taking the new one.

It sucks that it had to happen in this way, but it'll all work out in the end. I am healing fast.

I can't wait for my new life to begin.