Two days of school have gone by.... they are pretty long and boring...
nobody really talks to me... I feel like a complete outcast.
I'm not sad about it or anything... it's just not very fun.
All my friends are in their late 20s, 30s, 40s... except for a select FEW.
I know that a lot of people will tell you this, but i REALLY don't connect with people my age... I just feel like we are on two different levels, especially mentally. Don't get me wrong, there are a lot of really cool kids out there that are my age... I DO talk to a few people my age, but when i talk to them, I feel like I am talking to a wall. They don't understand me. They act like they do, but they DONT. I can feel it in their words and actions. They think they know what they want. They think they know who they are. But they don't. They don't even know what is in the food they eat. (had to throw it in there!)
I mean, I'm not trying to say I'm better than them by any means, I'm simply saying that I feel like I am on a different mental level than them, whether it be better or worse. I feel like I have a better grip on my life. I am not saying that I know who I am or what exactly the meaning of my life is, but i DO feel like my connection with myself, my life, and the environment is probably better than a handful of others my age.
You feel me?
I got to school early today and came into my first period early --- I was talking to my teacher and I mentioned how not many people talk to me at this school, and she was like "YEAH I've noticed that!" and I was like "eh, i guess I simply don't connect with people my age" and she said, "But i mean, i feel like I PERSONALLY can connect with you!" Then we got to talking about how much the school and the people have changed. SHe said it used to be full of people like me --- completely determined and focused on their ART and totally passionate. Now it's full of fake people who ACT like they care, but give very little effort.
THE GREEN FAD
You all know about it. Theres a huge cause going around about being green. People are finally opening their eyes once again to the ENVIRONMENT. People are becoming aware. People are taking baby steps and making changes. It's great, except for this:
ITS TURNING INTO A "COOL FAD" AMONG STUDENTS... but wait thats not the bad part:
I see these kids, everday, carrying around one of those "GO GREEN" or "RECYCLE" or "SAVE THE PLANET" tote bags that they now sell EVERYWHERE (even as purses at Target and Walmart) -- everyday I see those kids drinking out of bottles and then THROWING THE BOTTLES AWAY IN THE TRASH.. UH, WHAT!? SERIOUSLY? you are wearing a freakin "GO GREEN" tote and then you don't even recycle your plastic?
...talk about FAKE PEOPLE!
And you know what pisses me off even more?! How people (mainly teens) are going out and buying these "go green" or whatever T-SHIRTS at like freakin Victoria Secret (yes they have some i think) and expensive stores, but they are doing it for the FAD, not for the CAUSE!!!!!!
why not skip on the super expensive go green shirt !? donate it to somewhere that COUNTS! (a cheap one is okay if you ACTUALLY care about the cause, ya know? But vicky secret... are you kidding!? or if the money is donated somewhere important)
Yesterday I was in Target and they have all these folders for school with recycling designs.... I mean, this is great, considering people are finally being aware, but AHHHHHH I HATE FADS SO MUCH! the thing is, MANY OF THESE TEENAGERS DON"T ACTUALLY CARE!
they just act like they do.
Next time I see someone throw away a plastic bottle I am going to throw a freakin RIOT.
For the record, last year (before the big fad among teens) I would stand by the trash can sometimes and when people would throw away bottles i'd snatch them and recycle them.
ARRRRRGHHHHHHHH okay enough rambling, i just had to get that out. Hope it makes sense!